It's one of those nights again. I sit here and question every little thing. Why am I here? What can I do to become happy again? Am I just overexaggerating?
I'm at war with myself. Nonstop fighting and thinking. What can I do? I try and distract myself, but it usually doesn't work.
If anyone is reading this, what do you do when you can't stop thinking about negative things? I've tried by making myself list five things positive about myself or just life in general, but it only helps for a little. I try and distract myself by creating a different world in my mind. That's really the only thing that helps. That and medicine.
I'm sure if you've been reading my blogs that you could've guessed I'm on medication. I am and I am not ashamed of it. Without it, I'm not sure if I would be here.
I take two types. One mainly for depression and then another for anxiety when I need it. I barely take the anxiety one but if I'm having a very bad night I'll take it so it'll knock me out. I'm sure I sound crazy and I guess I am. But like I've said before, who is normal?
Does anyone actually read my blogs? I'm probably too crazy and not well spoken enough to get views. Oh well, haha. But if anyone is reading this, could I ask you a few things? Do you struggle with depression and anxiety? If so, how do you cope? Do you have any of the thoughts or feelings I have? I just want to know that I'm not the only one so I can feel a bit sane.
Until next time,